My resolve in the New Year

It occurred to me while out with my guy friends that 2009 is only a day away.
New Years are supposed to mean fresh starts, new outlooks and lots of resolutions.
But how many times have things ever really changed intentionally?
In the New Year i foresee lots of change, but most of it will happen regardless of my own actions...time moves without my help.

I guess in the New Year i resolve to be more open to the change that is coming and eager for it to be here.
Life gets stagnant at times and if i can say nothing else of 2008 its that it has been anything but stagnant.
I'm looking forward to life...and becoming a real person with things to balance and talents to expand.
I'm looking forward to being the first of my family unit to walk and receive my collegiate piece of paper.

I'm looking forward to something new, scary, different and exciting.
I look forward to the New Year.
Happy 2009.

Christmas

Despite having to work the whole holiday, it was a good year to celebrate.
The levity was much needed around the station and in my own life, Chirstmas is simply my favorite.
Good friends, amazing family and a home cooked breakfast made it all the more wonderful.

Merry Chirstmas everyone!

Almost...

Brave insane mall conditions...check
Buy presents for family...check.
Buy myself a congratulations present...check.

Its almost Christmas.
I've noticed in my later years that the almost time before Christmas is full of a little bit less anticipation then in previous years.
The warm breakfasts and festive paper is still the same.
My family still opens up everything on Christmas morning just as we always have...but lots of things are different.
Remember when Christmas was full of magic?
I do.

Maybe you are supposed to feel removed from all of that so one day when you have your own children you are eager to make it that much better for them.
There is something incredibly pure about believing there is a Santa Clause.
Fat belly, red suit and all that fluff.

Merry ALMOST Christmas.

David

This is David, my model for figure Drawing.
Charcoal and conte crayon on Brown craft paper.

Inspired

Inspiration comes in all shapes and sizes.
This weekend it came in the form of The Boy in the Striped Pyjamas.
The quote inspired the pastel drawing to the left, it also opened the movie.
There are days like today when i wish life was as simple as swinging on a tire swing...

It seems that lately it has been anything but.
Goofy, crazy Aubrey hasn't had a second to appear because recently everything has been about responsibility.
I want to be carefree, I want to take things as the come, but lately I've been dealt a raw deal.
The glass is ALWAYS half full...I just have to keep reminding myself.

Things will get better, they have to.

Breath Clouds

Christmas Eve:
The more you love someone,
The more you want to kill them.
Loving and killing Fit like hand in glove!
So if there is someone
You are wanting soTo kill them.
You go and find him.
And you get him.
And you no kill him.
Cause chances good
He is your love.
~Avenue Q

It snowed last night and into the early morning.
I love it.
As the semester comes to a close, the holiday season approaches.
Christmas is so close.
I guess it got me thinking.

Happy Weekend