Fall

It rained last night. The kind of rain that impairs your vision and makes your tires slip around corners. I had to squint to see through my exhausted eyes. I was too tired to cry, or to feel. Sometimes that's a feeling I relish.

I walked around campus today. It's cold and orange and yellow and perfect weather for hand-holding and hooded sweatshirts. I got to the bell tower and sat under the bells and thought about all of the before-times. It wasn't less complicated then, it was just different.

Tonight as I pulled out of my parking spot outside of the theater, time happened to me in a different way. It's not a fear, it's an unknown. Usually I get excited, but today I was terrified and alone behind the wheel, driving away from all of those potential lights.

Suddenly everything is real and there aren't any song lyrics to relate it to.
Tonight it's just me.