Ahead of the Curve

I've always tried to be a step ahead.
A beat before the rest, ready for whatever was coming.
But no matter how far ahead I may be, i always feel ten steps behind.
Especially as I see my peers succeed.

I'm proud to see those I worked with and admired get to the places they had been striving for, but as I watch I get hungrier and more annoyed that I'm just not there yet.
Many would say that I'm rushing...failing to enjoy the present when really I just crave relevance.
I don't see the relevance in wasting thousands of dollars to learn how to become a more "well rounded student."
Forgive me for my sarcasm, but I'd rather be working in the feild I've finished learning about then waste another year filling out elective credits.

Two days ago I became and Emmy Nominee, and while extremely exciting and incredible...I wish I was producing eligible stories myself, rather then helping others to succeed.
All in good time...I just prefer to be ahead of the curve.